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There are fascinating possibilities in this situation.

I'd get it down on paper if I were you.

By the rules of the game, I must always lie.
Remember this, when the scream at last has ended and you've turned on the lights:
By the rules of the game, I must always lie.
This journal is closed. It remains here as an archive, but I no longer use LJ. I do not currently have an online journal elsewhere. You can find my fan fiction, old and new, on Ao3. I post new fan fiction there and update old ones there. No new fan fiction will be posted to this journal until further notice (and I wouldn't count on it happening, so just go to Ao3 if you're looking for fan fiction). Sorry for the inconvenience.

I write things. Sometimes I write fan things, but mostly I’m getting away from fandom and turning more and more to my own original characters and ideas. In fandom, in the past, I’ve mostly written Supernatural fan fiction, at least on this journal. In my other journals, under the name lucilla_darkate and with the journal demon_deception I wrote Harry Potter, mostly Harry/Draco slash, and some RPS, mostly 30 Seconds to Mars band slash. I have not yet posted those stories here and I may decide not to, but I’m still considering it. There were a few Supernatural stories under the other journals early on and they're here, too, so if you've seen it elsewhere, that's probably why. It's not theft, it's just relocation.

I allow translations of my stories, but you need to ask me first anyway. It's just manners. I don't allow pod fic, so don't ask.

I don't post original fiction here at the moment and I probably won't. If I do, it will be filtered and the number of people I'll put on that filter hardly bears mentioning.

Fan fiction these days is pretty much all over the place. In Supernatural, I write mostly Sam/Castiel, and yeah I’m a huge shipper about that. I'm newly into The Following and am playing with Joe/Ryan slash. Otherwise, I’m really into smaller fandoms when it comes to fan fiction. I typically write more than I read, which I understand is a bad habit I should try to break. So far, no luck.

I sometimes do art, though I don’t have nearly the kind of time for it that I used to. I really don't do fanart much as I don't have the time. When I have the time to read it, I rec fan fiction at the journal 2ucif3r. I will usually also link to those posts on this journal.

I also like poetry a lot and song lyrics. I’m really into music and sometimes I share poetry and music with my f-list, though the music posts are locked. I like TV shows a hell of a lot more than movies because of the constant way they tell the story. It’s easy to get caught up and attached and especially in fandom, it opens up a lot of potential for stories to come out of it. I might be slightly addicted to a few of these shows.

I do sometimes--rarely--write about the TMI of my personal life on here, but those posts are on a filter. You will not be added to that filter unless I talk to you often and like you enough to trust you with that kind of thing. I am not an oversensitive person, but some shit really is not the world’s business. Also, I’m contradictory that way in that I am incredibly private with my personal life and yet sometimes have the need to write about my personal life, such as it is.

I have phobias, the most intense ones being a fear of dolls, spiders and things beneath my skin. I go through moments of obsession, but they tend to fade quickly. Despite popular belief to the contrary, I am not an atheist, I’m more or less agnostic. Why, you ask? I have commitment issues and atheism is way too trendy these days to suit me. No, I’m really not kidding. I have tried being an alcoholic, but it just wouldn’t take, in spite of generations of alcoholism and addictive behavior running deep in my family. I have a strange fascination with playing cards, bathroom graffiti and graffiti in general, the bible and unicorns. I love tattoos and I think smoking is sexy, even though I don’t smoke. I am quite often alone, but I am rarely lonely.

My friending policy, at least right now, is really simple. Do not wank at me about anything ever and we should get along just fine. Wanking is not the same as discussing, I do know the difference and I like to discuss things just fine. Don't be a dick, though. This is my journal and I don't have to put up with that crap from anyone and I won't. Also, don't come over here and whine to me about how I "triggered" you with anything I said or wrote. I don't give a shit and all that will do is piss me off. You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else, which among other things means that you can take responsibility for closing the damn window if you don't like it. If you choose to not do this, that is not my problem.

"Friend" away. I will only add you back if you talk to me and seem to have similar interests as I do. If you don't talk to me or I don't care what you're up to, I don't see the point. This is LJ, it's not life. I don't owe you anything and you don't owe me anything. If we entertain one another and don't piss each other off, there's not much else you can ask for.

Regarding fandom(s) and that sort of thing, the shows I watch right now are The The Following, Person of Interest, Sons of Anarchy, Californication, Hannibal, BBC Sherlock and Doctor Who. I don’t currently watch Supernatural anymore. I am also a big fan of Terminator and wish they'd figure out their shit and make another one. I am currently re-reading everything about Hannibal Lecter by Thomas Harris, Barrel Fever by David Sedaris, The Regulators by Richard Bachman a.k.a Stephen King, and The Dream Cycle of H.P. Lovecraft: Dreams of Terror and Death. I also find myself a fangirl of various people who are known for various things in a more or less constantly random way. Right now, I fangirl Andy Biersack of the band Black Veil Brides because he’s cute and very quirky and awesome, even if I don’t particularly like most of his music. It’s the writing, it sucks a bit and I’m a snob like that. I fangirl Thomas Dekker because he's pretty and I'm not going to even try to lie and come up with a less shallow reason. His eyelashes, man, they fascinate me. Also, Charlie Hunnam, because he’s hot and he amuses me. Benedict Cumberbatch because he is very talented and nice to his fans and I ♥ Sherlock, and James Purefoy, probably because I have a thing for sexy serial killers. Those are just the new additions to my fangirlish-ness. The complete list is quite vast. To be honest, I don't consider myself a fan of anyone simply because they are nice to look at, even if they are. Usually they also have to be pretty cool people.

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