Title: Mud on the Stars
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing(s): Sam/Castiel, OC's with various minor SPN characters, such as Patrick the manwitch/OC (sorta), Lucky the dog shapeshifter/OC, OC's with other OC's, Crowley should pop up somewhere eventually.
Word count: 9,800+ (this part)
Rated: PG-13 right now
Warnings: Character death, monsters, abuse of artistic license is likely
Notes: This is a WIP. I know, that's a scary thing. You might like it though. Chapter One is here.

( Her jaw was broken, but the ghoul woman still managed to sink her teeth into Sam’s forearm and hang on. )

• Thu, 13:35: But non-mothers i.e. "sexy" women flashing their tits all over is fine: Time breastfeeding cover sparks controversy: http://t.co/7ieacRio
• Thu, 13:36: I have nothing against women doing that or even women in the sex industry, but that is awesome and breast-feeding is nasty. Perspective plz.
• Thu, 13:41: RT @joeycomeau: I hope real libraries are the dens of iniquity that they are in my imagination.
• Thu, 13:48: RT @OldHollandPaint: An inspirational moment, but no canvas within reach? Try books..! http://t.co/UTtL5mmc
• Thu, 13:48: RT @neilhimself: If you are a fan of Sherlock, or of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle, help #SaveUndershaw http://t.co/7UiD4d4I
• Thu, 14:03: Cool: Reverse Graffiti (aka clean tagging, aka dust... http://t.co/W7GWGBsz
• Thu, 15:31: 20 Things You Didn’t Know About Fire 1  Fire... http://t.co/RswH1mDO
• Thu, 19:05: When Same-Sex Marriage Was a Christian Rite http://t.co/fa5PnxDw
• Thu, 19:21: Ten Gay Men’s Novels You Should Already Have Read If You Consider Yourself Even Semi-Literate http://t.co/2gydG3hK via @litreactor
• Thu, 19:22: I consider myself fully literate and I've not read any of those. I have seen the movie of "Gods and Monsters" though. It was dull.

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• Wed, 19:45: “Look at the trees, look at the birds, look at the clouds, look at the stars…and if you have eyes... http://t.co/nKBO5Uxx
• Wed, 19:51: "I think too much when I kiss. If love did not exist, I would be so goddamn sane. My poems would... http://t.co/Y8Bto7Lv
• Wed, 19:55: Women who are incarcerated in the US are shackled... http://t.co/tHJCjTr3
• Wed, 19:56: “Not a single one of the cells that compose you knows who you are, or cares.”-- Daniel Dennett
• Wed, 19:58: Neil Gaiman 1�Write. 2�Put one word after another. Find the right word, put it... http://t.co/A3TRgVZB
• Wed, 20:00: Books ♥ http://t.co/SPH3aIDM
• Wed, 20:18: Today... http://t.co/hMf8HU7s
• Wed, 21:34: Viewing child pornography online not a crime: New York court ruling | http://t.co/RpEAB1aE
• Wed, 21:40: I really hope someone shanks their asses: Cops to Be Tried in Fatal Beating of Homeless Man Caught on Video: http://t.co/eJrnhqer
• Wed, 22:03: A pit bull perception problem: What's a dog owner to do? http://t.co/P0rOPcjB

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Someone stole my jump-drive from the computer lab. When I mentioned it to my roommate, I said I couldn't remember all that was on it and I hope there wasn't any porn. She laughed and said she knew I "don't do that." Oh, you poor idiot. You only know about me what I want you to know, which is practically nothing. It does kind of fascinate me though that nearly everyone I know insists on believing I am some kind of very straight-laced, innocent person, verging on prudish. I don't actively do anything to make them think this, and if they spend ten minutes talking to me about anything of any importance, that would be readily apparent. Except even people who know me rather well still, incredibly, go on believing this.

Well, I hope whoever has it enjoys the fuck out of the gay porn, which is what's on there if there is any. That and I think maybe one of my old essays I wrote while at UNO and some graphics portraitofafool made for me. Perhaps some fandom icons. The rest is very normal studious crap. I'm willing to bet there isn't porn though, at least not the visual type since I had no reason to put it there. There might be an old rough version of the first half of The Lives of Others (TSCC fic, not the German film), which is almost as funny as the porn to think about. Fuckers. Taking the thing meant I had to redo all of the work I'd done on my stupid business paper about stocks, which was boring as fuck the first time and did not become more enjoyable with repetition. For that alone, I hope there IS porn on there and it scares the Montana-dwelling Republican panties off of their thieving asses.

Tomorrow is my math final. Ew. Also, all the things are due tomorrow. Double ew. I am not excited. My first inclination of course is to do anything else and procrastinate, but nay, I shall not do that. I can't.

• Tue, 12:44: “Never waste your time trying to explain who you are to people who are committed to misunderstanding you.”-- Dream Hampton
• Tue, 12:45: RT @denisleary: 50% of Americans support gay marriage. Other 50% is divorced.
• Tue, 12:47: RT @pourmecoffee: "Where the Wild Things Are (as read by Christopher Walken)" http://t.co/vbhm9Po6 RIP, Maurice Sendak
• Tue, 12:47: RT @neilhimself: He was unique, grumpy, brilliant, gay, wise, magical and made the world better by creating art in it. #RIPMauriceSendak
• Tue, 12:48: Is this for real? 'Cause I want a blue snake for a pet now. http://t.co/ZXEF1Ia5
• Tue, 12:49: Bug Wears Dead Bodies Of Slain Enemies As Armor: http://t.co/t49veySc
• Tue, 12:52: Cool: Portrait painting by Sam Spratt: http://t.co/hXrXTZwg
• Tue, 12:54: If this is a police car and you're under arrest, why are you half naked? In essence, this is hot: http://t.co/UX8PyW4r
• Tue, 12:54: And so is this: http://t.co/4alAMzm6
• Tue, 12:58: This looks so incredibly bad for you and like exactly what I want right now. Yummy. Food porn: http://t.co/E5uIWk9K

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“I do understand what love is, and that is one of the reasons I can never again be a Christian. Love is not self denial. Love is not blood and suffering. Love is not murdering your son to appease your own vanity. Love is not hatred or wrath, consigning billions of people to eternal torture because they have offended your ego or disobeyed your rules. Love is not obedience, conformity, or submission. It is a counterfeit love that is contingent upon authority, punishment, or reward. True love is respect and admiration, compassion and kindness, freely given by a healthy, unafraid human being.”

~ Dan Barker

This is me right now:


I had two final exams today back to back. I didn't eat much of anything this morning, so the second one I took while feeling light headed and like I was going to vomit all over the computer I was taking it at. Fortunately for all parties involved, this did not happen.

I slept a grand total of 2 1/2 hours last night--actually more like early this morning. I'm still not sure how I even got up, but I did.

I have a ton of shit still to do and it all has to be done by Thursday. The instructor for my computers class lost one of my assignments, so I have to do it OVER again. The bitch instructor for my business class assigned us a bullshit amount of stuff to do the week before finals week, all of it due Thursday morning. Of that, I still have a written test to complete, a project using advertisements to demonstrate types of marketing, and a paper on stocks left to do. I am not sure this is even remotely realistic. I still have to organize and write out my notes for my math exam on Thursday so that it's not a total flop.

Then on Friday, I have to pack all my shit and move out of the dorm here by 2:30. I get to see my lovely parents, which I am not at all excited about, but I also get to sleep forever if I want to after that and no one will give a damn. Which is a bonus I eagerly look forward to.

This is all making the very optimistic assumption that I will survive until Friday at this rate.

The roommate is off doing whatever the fuck it is she does when she's not getting on my last nerve, so I'm going to attempt a nap time. Why did I want to do this again? Riiiiight. Love of literature and the written word, gotcha. Mhmm, I think possibly I might just be insane.

• Mon, 13:08: Lol. Why "douchebag" is an awesome insult: http://t.co/P3UDVm3B
• Mon, 13:11: Cool urban decay photo: http://t.co/HkqDFQ53
• Mon, 13:14: "Fucking unicorns. 'Oh, I've got a horn!' So fucking obnoxious... http://t.co/a81x4XNZ
• Mon, 15:58: "It is very, very easy not to be offended by a book. You just have to shut it."--Salman Rushdie
• Mon, 16:00: "What is freedom of expression? Without the freedom to offend, it ceases to exist."--Salman Rushdie
• Mon, 16:02: "Another world is not only possible, she is on her way. On a quiet day, I can hear her breathing."--Arundhati Roy
• Mon, 16:12: "De Sade is the one completely consistent and thoroughgoing revolutionary of history."--Aldous Huxley
• Mon, 16:19: Most moronic thing I've read all day: "Men don't like feminists unless they're gay!" Except my punctuation is spot-on.
• Mon, 16:23: "It's a funny thing, the less people have to live for, the less nerve they have to risk losing nothing."--Zora Neale Hurston
• Mon, 16:32: Outgoing American University Student Body President Comes out as Transgender http://t.co/yxY3QDIn

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• Sun, 17:41: New blog: Vashti (Andy Whitfield\'s wife) http://t.co/dc17wjC1
• Sun, 19:36: Failing sky-diving, this is next on my bucket list: The Walk Of Faith http://t.co/B4vOr0dq
• Sun, 19:38: “The difference between how you look and how you see yourself is enough to kill most people.”-- Chuck Palahniuk
• Sun, 23:02: RT @pourmecoffee: Humans were not meant to endure the insufferable sniveling of King Joffrey and Pete Campbell back-to-back.
• Mon, 00:14: “Forget the books you want to write. Think only of the book you are writing.”-- Henry Miller

Edit: Upon reflection, I think "Failing sky-diving" was perhaps badly phrased.

• Sat, 18:47: So apparently today was Kentucky Derby and this is still a big deal. Trending topic on yahoo was mint julep. Ever had a mint julep? Nasty.
• Sat, 18:50: Arizona Bans Funding To Planned Parenthood... http://t.co/4FgM3e5y
• Sat, 18:52: “Don’t ever mistake my silence for ignorance, my calmness for acceptance, or my kindness for weakness.”-- Anonymous
• Sat, 18:52: “The universe is not required to be in perfect harmony with human ambition.”-- Carl Sagan
• Sat, 18:55: "Believe in the Good that there is and not in the God that isn’t." -- Piyush Lodha
• Sat, 18:58: The unfortunate facts about veteran poverty http://t.co/XdtrScTJ
• Sat, 19:00: Tsingy de Bemaraha (Stone Forest) - Madagascar http://t.co/bdJ3FSo8
• Sat, 19:09: Being an atheist is causing a good man to fight for custody of his daughter http://t.co/iZ3IowGG
• Sat, 19:11: "You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear... http://t.co/tSts7ZpO
• Sat, 19:14: This "photo session" always amuses me because it was just Jim Morrison goofing off in a friend's apartment. http://t.co/v4u6IPZR

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• Fri, 20:48: Jared Leto's armpit. Lol. http://t.co/eQx4qy0k
• Fri, 20:50: “By learning to become normal, a community of individuals becomes docile.”-- Foucault, 1977
• Fri, 20:56: “Sometimes at night I would sleep open-eyed underneath a sky dripping with stars. I was alive then.”-- Albert Camus
• Fri, 21:02: Everyone calls it the buttplug gnome: http://t.co/Xxn0G6LK
• Fri, 21:06: “Conservatives sound painfully square when they talk about drugs. They seem to think pot is the same as acid is... http://t.co/jJh5DsY7
• Fri, 21:09: Judge: An IP-Address Doesn’t Identify a Person (or BitTorrent Pirate) http://t.co/QEOGDtnI
• Fri, 21:11: Word. http://t.co/BhDDW3bF
• Fri, 21:34: RT @pourmecoffee: Your lies and deception will be unmasked by the blanketing light of the Supermoon. It exposes the weak, reveals the st ...
• Fri, 21:47: I am surprised it has taken this long for people to notice the crazy: Ted Nugent explodes on morning show interview http://t.co/m0Raf9ok
• Fri, 22:48: RT @joeycomeau: there's nothing worse than realizing YOU are the weepy drunk in the puppy aisle at the pet store.

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I don't get the Klaus/Caroline thing, I really, really don't. Does no one, including them apparently, remember that he TRIED TO SACRIFICE HER?

This show, these characters, they have the all-time bestest ever selective memories for that kind of shit. I like Klaus. I like Caroline. I don't even hate the idea of them as Klaus/Caroline, BUT please to be addressing this seriously big plot-hole issue before you go mushing their faces together.

Also, Tyler. I don't think he's at all attractive, but he is cute and he does love her to death and that would really suck if asshole Klaus came along and succeeded there because no one, conveniently enough, remembered he was trying to kill the girl before he decided he wanted to fuck her. I mean great if you want to play around with that, but can we not forget the other thing? It's a big thing. I think it needs to be mentioned.

The whole thing with Damon/Elena/Stefan is actually starting to get on my nerves a lot. I think she should choose Damon if she's going to choose anyone and I have my reasons for that. BUT, all of that aside, again with the conveniently forgetting ALL THE THINGS. Both of them, my god, they have done some of the most fucked up shit in the world and while it gets everyone shocked and upset for a while, it passes after an episode. Two at the most. And then it's just forgotten. THAT IS NOT LOGICAL. Stop it.

Also, everyone telling her she will eventually have to choose? Fuck you people. There is a lot deeply and seriously wrong with that statement. But that's the norm of the society we live in, fine, I get that. It's still bullshit. I see absolutely no reason why she has to choose. I think she should choose just because Stefan sucks, but that's me. If she doesn't want to, if it would cause more pain to her and everyone else involved to choose rather than not choose, if by doing that she risks losing someone she cares about, if there is a way that they could all come to terms with the whole not choosing thing and stop being jealous fuckwits, then why? I wouldn't. If those were my circumstances and it was me, I would not and anyone who didn't like it, that is their problem.

Finally, Rick. What are they doing to you, Rick? That shit is CRAZY. They're getting rid of Klaus and so left without a villain, they make the grumpy, alcoholic, history teaching, ex-vampire slayer who is best friends with A VAMPIRE into a fucking VAMPIRE. Not just any vampire though, the superman of all vampires who also... wait for it... hates VAMPIRES.

You just took all that logic you had left over, kind of like this residue sludge, from where you make no sense while trying to hook up Caroline with Klause, yeah, AND THREW IT AWAY. So now he's going around trying to kill all of his friends because whenever he died, before coming back because of the magic ring, a crazy vampire hating witch was whispering vampire hate into his dead ears. WHAT? No, really, WHAT? That is the stupidest, most contrived, bullshit explanation for anything I have ever heard. He was dead so he was vulnerable or something, fine, BUT he doesn't actually believe any of that shit so now he does. Just like that? He couldn't just swat the crazy vampire hating witch and make her stop doing that shit? Or, I don't know, act like a sentient creature with rational thoughts and not get a complete personality change?

They are going to kill Rick now. I am really annoyed by this idea and I've about had it with this show I think. Yeah, okay maybe I expect too much from it, but Jesus. Is it too much to ask for good story telling and rational explanations for things and like, characters that actually remember what they did and said the week before? I didn't make it through 3 seasons of this show still liking it because it sucked, either, so this crap is NOT appreciated.

• Wed, 17:48: I want this chair. http://t.co/s357r6oQ
• Wed, 18:21: About the hymen: http://t.co/OX7ngYwa
• Wed, 18:37: What a weird thing. 50 Bald Eagles considered sufficient to US Fish and Wildlife http://t.co/8VayQeQi
• Wed, 20:11: Fucked up. Pretty sure these are real cuts. I have some that looked just like that when new, except they didn't say: http://t.co/a2bNX3dB
• Wed, 21:31: RT @pourmecoffee: Genius. Colleges withholding transcripts of students late on loans so they can't get jobs and pay loans. http://t.co/3 ...
• Wed, 21:36: RT @neilhimself: I just typed "sidewalk" and libre office changed it to "pavement". I do not want programs to change my words. Presumptu ...
• Wed, 21:37: RT @jaybrannan: Jay Brannan - Your House (Alanis Morissette) http://t.co/VsTQwHrj
• Wed, 22:10: I don't get the Ashton Kutcher hate. This add is hilarious http://t.co/9uHz7OHh
• Wed, 22:49: RT @funnyordie: Join @MeaganGood @ZacharyLevi @JesseMcCartney @CaitlinCrosby @AlysonOnTour & more in taking a stand against bullying ...
• Thu, 00:24: Art rec: Charcoal�Captain America by�Matt Buck� http://t.co/Vv1HUgS6

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• Tue, 17:19: RT @timcarvell: To go by the "Dark Knight Rises" trailer, any scene between Bane and Batman is just going to sound like two subwoofers a ...
• Tue, 17:22: I have thought this before, actually: http://t.co/3hWDUBxj
• Tue, 17:27: I can believe rats laugh. I had one when I was a kid that died of a cold, sadly. These are so cute: http://t.co/LyLhadbW
• Tue, 17:31: Bad Opinion Generator: http://t.co/k5eRYOPT
• Tue, 17:32: Most amazing origami: http://t.co/FdoOa5A0
• Tue, 17:43: Adoxography (n.) beautiful writing on a subject of little or no importance.
• Tue, 17:50: I am always amazed at how many people don't know that you can do this: http://t.co/qDpNgB0p
• Tue, 17:53: Google admits to helping craft CISPA: http://t.co/Ny9aN92W
• Tue, 17:56: So I read today that the NYPD was harassing people before May Day about the May Day protesting. How are people surprised by this?
• Tue, 17:57: I protested today by staying in bed.

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Title: Pie on the Side
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: Sam/Castiel
Rated: PG
Medium: Charcoal
Notes: This was sort of inspired by a story I wrote, A Covenant With Pie on the Side, but there's no kissing in that. I thought there should be kissing in this, though kissing is probably one of the most difficult things to draw in my opinion. Unless you have a reference picture of those two people kissing to go by, which I obviously didn't have. There are a lot of parts to line up and then it has to not look unnatural. I really like how this turned out and am very pleased with it. Loads of frustration, but it paid off in the end.

Preview:


Pie on the Side

Exile
Jeffrey Mcdaniel

Mathematicians still don’t understand
the ball our hands made, or how

your electrocuted grandparents made it possible
for you to light my cigarettes with your eyes.

It isn’t as simple as me climbing into the window
to leave six ounces of orange juice

and a doughnut by the bed, or me becoming
the sand you dug your toes in,

on the beach, when you wished
to hide them from the sun and the fixed eyes

of strangers, and your breath broke in waves
over my earlobe, splashing through my head, spilling out

over the opposite lobe, and my first poems
under your door in the unshaven light of dawn:

Your eyes remind me of a brick wall
about to be hammered by a drunk
driver. I’m that driver. All night
I’ve swallowed you in the bar.

Once I kissed the scar, stretching its sealed
eyelid along your inner arm, dried

raining strands of hair, full of pheromones, discovered
all your idiosyncratic passageways, so I’d know

where to run when the cops came.
Your body is the country I’ll never return to.

The man in charge of what crosses my mind
will lose fingernails, for not turning you

away at the border. But at this moment
when sweat tingles from me, and

blame is as meaningless as shooting up a cow with milk,
I realise my kisses filled the halls of your body

with smoke, and the lies came
like a season. Most drunks don’t die in accidents

they orchestrate, and I swallowed
a hand grenade that never stops exploding.

Actually, most of the time. I'm not a big Lady Gaga fan by any means which is why I didn't pay much attention to it when Norman Reedus (who I am a big fan of) was in one of her videos. Even him playing Judas (as a biker) wasn't enough to make me interested. My enjoyment of Lady Gaga is pretty much limited to gay bars and that cover of "Bad Romance" 30 Seconds to Mars did. So anyway, I finally watched it. And the song is shit, which I expected, and the video is weird, which I also expected, and Norman Reedus is hot, ditto. But then he goes and kisses Jesus which no, I was not expecting.

I find myself always posting about this dude when he's kissing other guys, which is a bit odd to say about a straight man. Admirable though and still very cool. I am not complaining.

Gaga puts lipstick on him:



The kiss:



I guess him and Jesus guy asked her if they were going to be making out or what. I am not ashamed to say that I am a little sad that is not how it went down. Ah well. If you want to watch it, here's the video:



Edit: smallfandomfest just opened up for prompts for another round. Someone stop me from signing up for this again! I have... no... will power...